I’m taking tomorrow off. Why? Mental break down, perhaps? Caught the black death?
Uh, not exactly. I didn’t feel exactly 100% all last week, and it certainly showed in my classroom. By Friday, I had lost my voice and was hacking up solid flecks of neon green phlegm. I spent the weekend coughing, hacking, sneezing, and generally expelling bright green and sometimes bloody bits.
I feel generally okay; I have a voice, never had a fever, I slept 20 hours in two days, and I am prepared for tomorrow. I’m sure TFA would want me to feel GUILT for skipping out of my class. GUILT GUILT GUILT.
However. I have been in survival mode for far too long. I don’t have heat in my house because I haven’t had time to call my landlord. I feel like I’ve been generally freaked out, stressed out, or wired most days.
No wonder my immune system said ‘hey, SCREW YOU’ after months of this. If I’m going to be a success at teaching, I have to renew myself. Not just ‘relax’ on weekends by grading 55 essays, vocabulary quizes, and spelling tests EVERY SINGLE WEEKEND.
I support TFA and I love my students. However, if I need anything, I need ideas of how to successfully support myself. It doesn’t look like my school or TFA is going to do it, so…
No guilt. Taking the day off.